Sunday, November 22, 2020

The Sheds

The bustling mini-town,

of men and women at work,

and of joyous children,

playful with puppies,

carrying them around,

teasing them, and then

escaping them.


Of the gatekeepers,

and their shifts,

mingling with the town, and then

phone-sleeping on the cart.


Of the vegetable vendor,

wooing the near-empty pockets.


Of the contractor,

managing the labour,

gathering them, early morning

for the next sweat.


Of the men,

rushing in the morning,

with their tiffins,

rambling in the evenings,

ambling at the weekends,

gambling in the nights,

before sleeping, 

content,

in columns,

under the uncertain skies.


Of the women,

with their early morning rituals,

at the earliest,

the common lavatories,

and later, their orange jackets,

packed in the vehicle,

towards the construction site,

kids wailing at mums going way,

until the evenings,

at the choolah,

gossips on the weekends,

in narrow lanes between the sheds.


Birds gliding across,

the scene of the sheds,

numerous pigeons,

quarrelsome crows,

chirpy polyglot mynas,

chilled out dove,

and the happiest one,

sparrow-sized brown bird,

yet un-named in my mind,

rising and gliding,

with the wind,

its best friend.


But then,

it happened.

When birds were left alone,

with dogs,

and the sole watchman.

Labourers,

began walking,

the long empty roads,

leaving the sweltering sheds,

sites, turned dead,

for hometowns,

some grew even thinner,

while some perished.

The vocal netizens,

their online sympathy,

while workers dragged slowly,

passing by their homes.


The restless civil society,

the stretched administration,

the frontline khaki,

and the self-less white-coats.


Until now,

when the chains are gone,

the movement is free,

the sheds are bustling,

tirelessly building the skyscrapers,

for the ones,

including this one,

who'll forget them again,

once the job is done.

The Happier Road

The road was happy,

it got bumpy,

because the 'mirror' was dirty,

but the Guru wiped the dust,

and then,

it couldn't have been happier.


Besides the party plot,

lay an observatory, 

previously unnoticed,

gazing towards the universe,

curiously,

simplicity,

joy, wonder,

all along,

like the poet's.

They never met before,

but were always close by.


The 7-year old dream shattered,

another began,

the weight was lifted,

upstream effort abated.

Lessons learnt,

joy returned,

with the star-gazer,

the road must be enjoyed.

Happiness,

is its building material.

Sunday, June 16, 2019

Painless

The incessant setbacks in the path to my goal are reflected in this poem, penned after the latest disappointment.

It's 7 now,
in a row,
Six years gone,
slogging,
with anticipations,
with visuals,
of success,
that remain
where they take birth,
still there.

While others,
they've raced ahead,
piled up reserves,
work experience,
some married,
some dads,
travellers,
and their trekking fads.

Experts, they are,
with break-free careers.

And here,
a huge gap,
no specialization,
half-jack of all trades.
Uniform, yes,
knowledge, rare.
General knowledge,
oh yeah,
that habit,
of binge-watching the newspapers.

The desire to rise,
the sick road taken,
the idealism,
that started it all,
is flickering,
those 'reforms',
the 'selflessness',
is stuttering,
facing essential questions,
is it OK to be selfish?
It might well be.

The determination,
is all but gone,
the thought of,
having missed,
the sceneries around
the 'determined' road,
haunts,
or have I not
missed much?

But there are stories,
of miracles,
of last-ditch attempts,
the final push,
the 'Do-or-die' fevour,
that mattered in the end,
all guilts evaporated,
pain forgotten,
'impossible' was proscribed.

The vigor must remain,
cool head,
careful analysis,
for these 7 may have
been due a reason,
What reason?
He knows.

Calmness,
diligence,
smart work,
concentration-
all needed.
For anyways,
it's already painless now.

The Happy Road

I turn, and I enter
the dim road,
brought into shape,
by a street lamp.

Travellers,
hardly any,
maybe a rare cyclist,
like me, or
a daily wage earner.

Residents,
many.
A tree,
dancing merrily with wind,
'content in solitude'.
Few shops,
workers tending machines,
the waiting barber, and
a lady, tired,
of ironing the 'rich' clothes,
the iron lady.

A school,
haunted,
till the morning bell.

The 'party' plot,
dark and lonely,
after the last night glitter.

At the far end,
a tea stall,
with an odd guest.
Adjoining the roadside temple,
the ringing bell,
of faith,
the sleepy priest.
And outside,
his partner,
the florist,
sifting the dead ones.

But the road,
it is happy,
to rest,
to roll,
basking in the moonlight.

Where does it lead to?
My mind.

P.S: I enjoy cycling on weekends these days. A particular street I cross, caught my attention and led to this poem.

No Longer The Studying Kind

Wrote the following paragraph on 23rd March 2010 (2nd year of B.Tech). Things certainly had changed from school to college:

There were school days when I used to enjoy studying, how eagerly I did my homework and how good were the teachers. But now, it has been long since I met books. This bloody laptop, through which I am writing my feelings is a damn idiot thing, that is responsible. On the whole I am myself responsible for this ordeal. There's nothing such as true interest left in me. Study just a day before, grasp the facts as much as you can. In the friend circles, we enjoy a lot but dedication is no longer to be seen. To a college student of today's era, my thoughts may seem cynical. The "chill" attitude that I have developed, troubles me a lot. Somewhere I miss that tint of contentedness that I used to have doing my home work myself, and not copying it two minutes before the deadline, like we do here today. You see the student who is my age group studying in MIT, is still thinking of solving that silly problem he faced developing the algorithm or visualizing the graphics of that game and I ? Full of remorse, days passing by .... I may get a job, then we would recall that how much fun we used to have, but true to heart maybe a pinch of guilt will continue to remain. I heard that life comes only once.....God help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

The Interview: Before it began

So much of a build-up, multiple climaxes that mind makes up and gives berth to fears - at least that's been the case with me for last few years before any important event is to take place. Including this one, the UPSC civil services interview. Thank God, who gives the courage that helps us soldier on. One moment I am in the Dafuq-HAHA-I-failed mood after mains 2014 failure, and now I am happy-cum-surprised over having been in tense, but calm corridors of UPSC.

Got up at around 8 in the morning, rushed to get the elusive newspaper in TG's Lajpat Nagar's by-lanes, for the probability of a question being asked from that day's paper is high. Sadly, couldn't locate a paper boy. But, I could get my face shaved to look prepared a bit. Thereafter, had milk and bread as breakfast, until Gopal and Amit (Mota) arrived with paraphernalia (like shoe polish). Got shirt and pant ironed....and fast forward to gate number 2 of UPSC Bhavan, the British era block with multiple security checks. On inquiring the guard who was checking my roll number against the list, he told that my number was the first on the list. A solace? Or a BAM, 'Come on kid!! We were waiting for you so long'. Some document verification and a little glance on newspapers of the day (all of them except The Hindu were on the table, as if deliberately done so) and jovial talks from fellow interviewees. After that we were taken to the core of UPSC bhavan where office of the Commission members are located. 

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

The Idea

He gets ready, 
verses on his lips apace, 
his inner self brims with excitement,
the fear of the unknown has been cornered,
the preacher enchants few last lines,
"to ensure a smooth passage", he confirms, 
fastening the belt,
off the boy's back.
"Heaven awaits you", promises he,
no inkling of what it looks like.

He's young, restless,
greenish eyeballs, hugs an idea,
the idea of bookish world,
"unjust world full of disbelievers",
that shall be reformed.
"Reformed" with explosives,
and blood as solvent,
of those, who draw cartoons,
of those, who doubt Him,
of those, who question faith,
to avenge injustice meted out,
to his God.

The shrapnel luggage
turns out to be a bit heavier,
but he needn't stand,
he'll drive the van,
into the market,
as if a vegetable van,
but instead supply fresh death,
to vendors, homemakers,
onlookers and by-standers.

He begins,
for his last stop,
verses run on his 'head'lines,
he speeds up,
so does the uneasiness,
a stray 'why?' crosses his mind,
an idea, but not firm enough.

The horn blares,
recklessly,
follows a zig-zag trail,
until a thud! 

Ashes, 
limbs, fluids,
scattered,
the lad, young and
restless, 
flesh and bones vanish,
undone,
becomes an idea,
a failed one,
maybe, and
Heaven, did he reach there?
No idea,
no messages yet.